Goal #4

So goal number four is..... I want to someday be a culinary arts chef, mainly specializing in Bakery, yet I still want to learn how to do it all. I love cooking and have for a really long time. Too bad going to this kind of a trade school is super expensive and unrealistic for many normal Americans. Who honestly has the money to even pay for tuition? its like 40,000 a semester... i dont. okay so maybe I exaggerated the cost of tuition a little, but seriously schools like these are so expensive. Way out of my range for money. All I've really wanted to with my life is cook though... is that too much to ask?

goal #3

I love traveling, and even though I have been very blessed in my life with traveling a lot with my family, I would love to travel by myself or with a future (very future) spouse. So goal number three travel the world.... and someday, yes someday I will do it.

Goal #2

So the second goal of mine is to learn to play the guitar, what a beautiful instrument. No joke I have been wanting to play one forever, maybe someday I will take a class in college or something. hope someday come sooner than later....

Goal #1

I have many things I want to achieve in my life. I could probably think of a billion and one, but we will start with one and expand on that.

Goal number one: Run a marathon.... as soon as I get in shape, and find a marathon to run. Also I think i will give myself two years to accomplish this goal. I have wanted to run one for so long, yet have never got the courage to do it. Two years isn't too long is it??

Im so blessed

Today I was reading a blog, about a boy who has leukemia  at the age of six, and i cried because I truly felt his mothers pain, and how hard it must be, and the struggles her family is going through. Though im not going through this trial myself I realize how much of a toll it has taken on the family. 

I realize how truly blessed I am with my life. I see it in such a different way than I used to see it.  My first perspective of life was what can life give me, how does it benefit me? Now I look at it as what can I give back to the world how can I give back to the Lord. Things this past year have changed my mind about how the Lord works and what I want to be doing with my own life.  Im truly blessed to live the life I live and love giving back to the world and God.  I love my life and the people in it, thanks so much for those who have blessed my life and have impacted it greatly. Im truly blessed. 

Graduation

As everyone knows im a senior getting ready to graduate this thursday actually. And though Im so excited, im so so very scared about it. Its not that fact that I LOVE high school and i want to stay in it as long as I can because im so ready to be done with high school. Just not starting the real life part. College scares me because there are so many new people and so many new things i havent experienced and well lets just say im not too good with new things. Moving into an apartment scares me even more the thought of living with five other girls, I dont even know and living with them for three months scares me so so bad.  Also Financial stuff scares me, and stresses me out I guess because i have always had it so good, with my parents helping me out with a lot of stuff, and kind of doing my own thing on my own time. This meaning that everything now has to be kind of scheduled, and i dont do well with scheduled things. But what scares me the most is failing, and not making something of myself, or not making my family proud. I guess its the thought of letting myself down, or never doing what i've always wanted to do. 

Oh well thats my little spill for the week. Hope everyone got there graduation announcements :]